I think I was four when the family went to Santa Cruz

By Cheryl Marie Wade

I think I was four when the family went to Santa Cruz Mother says there's not much to remember It was a dull trip She's not a woman who ever remembers much I remember my father sunburned so badly we could peel the skin from his back in large hunks I remember my father's skin I believe I was four when the family made that trip to Santa Cruz Mother says there's not much to remember She's not a woman who wants to remember much I can see my brother seated on a huge inner tube the tumble of waves They say he almost drowned That is the story the family always tells I think it was me I remember my father's skin the ocean of pink thigh

I am the one who really drowned on the family trip to Santa Cruz when I was four or five or two Mother says what's the difference There's not much to remember It was a dull trip I remember my father's skin wave after wave after wave Mother won't remember I was the one I remember my father's skin and Santa Cruz

About this poem

Spoken in Wade’s stage show A Woman With Juice and in Finding Words (1995).

We’re not sure of this poem’s title. Wade left it untitled, so it is known here by its first line. We haven’t yet found a published version of this poem. If you know its title, or where it was published, please get in touch.